| Another issue that makes this a bit complicated is that even though we are both first year University students, she is 4 years younger than me.
I know you would probably say that age doesn't matter and you're probably right (it's far from a "Tomkat" sized difference and my parents have a larger age difference between them).
It's just that she's the first girl (to my knowledge) I've liked, who had more than a one or two year difference. I'm afraid that she would prefer to be someone closer to her own age and that she might be scared away if this older guy revealed he had feeling for her, friends or not.
I can't tell her. I have no other friends at York. Most, if not all, of the people I once knew in highschool are long gone. I need this friendship to remain intact at all costs.
At the same time, my feelings for this girl get a bit stronger everytime I see her and it's starting to get hard keeping them bottled up. I've been trying to think of ways to reveal my feelings, without telling her. That's part of the reason I plan on giving her the birthday gift. I want to show her that I care.
You know, sometimes I think that I want to be with this girl so much because of been single for so long and has so many disapointments over the years and I don't want this girl to be just another "never was" on my list.
On the other hand, I feel that she's the perfect match for me. We get along great, we are both big movie fans, we have similar ethnic backgrounds, our personalities are very close, etc.
I just don't know what to do. I didn't really create this topic for advice, I just wanted to vent all the stuff going on in my mind. However, you are free to give advice if you want to. |