Hey, I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who posted in my last topic about a professor. He's doesn't have a bad personality. He's actually pretty easy to get along with (he just likes to talk a lot, so let him steer the conversation
). But I did appreciate the comments.
Anyhow, I have MANY terrible habits and it sounds like it's going to take a bad toll on me.
I haven't done homework basically since I started this semester at all.
I haven't really studied since I started the semester at all.
I'm late for morning classes on a regular basis.
I missed several classes since the semester has started.
I don't quite eat healthy.
Last week and this week when I tried to cut back on work hours I was swamped with tutoring.
And my priorities are absolutely backwards: computer > junk food > good food > work > school
I haven't made any friends to hang out with after school/class, but I made many friends that I see and talk to in school and work.
I'm not old enough to go out drinking since that seems to be the easiest way to make friends.
And I'll admit at times I do feel down because I feel lonely and such. I also feel down when I don't do the work I'm supposed to do. But at the same time I'm not taking any initiative to actually get things done the way they should be.
After so many years the school/work/video games thing isn't working. Not that it ever was successful anyway.
So how do I want to solve this? Go into the Air Force Reserves/Guard.
I have probably been sitting in my house for about 1/3 of my entire life for God's sakes. I think I'm just being lazy and am taking advantage of being lazy and that's where my many bad habits lie as you can see.
I think it would be good to actually go and get myself some discipline through the Military. I think it will help me get in better habits, be physically healthy(and hopefully attractive), and maybe even have some pride in myself.
One of my friends recently went into the Navy and I'm dieing to find out how he's doing. I think he's in some delayed entry program or something and will be going to A-School to get his education. I think he at least will feel much more badass than he has ever felt for being a soldier instead of a civilian.
Now I won't get the same effect as him but I think if I get physically stronger maybe I won't look all scrawny and geeky that I currently am. Maybe I'll actually develop courage to get into a relationship. I need some kind of close friend or relationship to keep myself going.
I think the biggest problem here is I'm am suffering from some kind of isolation. The only people I see outside of school are my mom, my mom's boyfriend, and my dog. I need to find someone else to hang out with and study and such or something I think to get my motivation.
So again I think the Air Force might help steer me in a direction to become a better person, otherwise I think I'll still be the same way that I am. I feel I need to go out in the world all by myself and start to fix my own problems instead of dragging others into it.
So anyhow, if you read this I'll be grateful. I don't want people to feel sorry for me in this vent, because this is something that CAN be changed. What I need though is advice.
Has any of your family enlisted in the military?
How was it before and after?
Do you think it's worthwhile?
If not what are some solutions to help myself get confidence in myself?
What can I do to meet people and have fun outside of the virtual world?
How do I get into better working habits?
How can I manage time for school, work, and homework while fully awake and alert?