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[Eagle Eye]

Well, if you don't remember, I posted a topic some time ago about a situation with my ex-girlfriend. In case you didn't see it, I'll start from the beggining.

*DEEP BREATH*

So back in about November, Tori and I hooked up, got to know each other real well and became basically like best friends. Well, one night, I was up till 4 AM with her on the phone, something I usually don't do (I can't stand to be on the damn thing more than 5 minutes). Well the main reason was because this girl poured her heart out to me, not about how great I've been to her, but of her past and things that have happened to her that not even her closest friends knew. She was crying over the phone and I spent all the time I could to console her, occasionally she'd drop those "I just don't know what to do" type questions that you can't answer because you haven'tdealt with that knida situation, you know the ones, the ones you can't BS a "well at least......" answer out of.

We became even more close after that, the only problem that both of us had: I'm graduating in May, she's only a sophomore, I'll be heading a couple hundred miles away, and she'll still be in Tennessee. For that reason, and for the fact that she's been hurt so much throughout her life by different men, and different people (had two exes cheat on her, one had a baby with another girl), we've kinda been close, but distant. I don't want her to get too close and have her heart broken once I leave, which she says she doesn't want to happen either.

Well, back in January, she called me, and we had a 10 minute conversation before she dropped that *Sigh* on me. When I asked her what's wrong, she replied, "I don't wanna talk about it,", I reminded her that we established that she wasn't going to play that game with me, and vice-versa. So, she wittily responded "what would you think I wouldn't wanna talk to you about", DING DING DING, MILLION DOLLAR QUESTION, and I guessed correctly.
We mutually agreed to split, and at that point, I thought it would be fine, I was feeling okay, she was feeling fine, and it was all good, we were still great friends.
Well, a week or two later, there was a dance, it wouldn't have been that bad if she wasn't there, making me a bit jealous (though unintentional). Another week later, two parties, same feeling, I finally told her, and she said she didn't know, but I told her I can't blame her. So for the past couple of weeks, we'd kinda been separate, hadn't talked to each other for a while, but it had hit me that I still wanted her, I don't know why, I just did. So one day, we were talking, and she said she wanted me back, but she didn't know if I felt the same way.

IF YOU'RE READING, THIS IS WHERE I MADE MISTAKE #1

I told her that I wouldn't mind getting back together, I didn't tell her my feelings, I just told her that. I had to run back to rehearsal, so I told her I'd call her that night. I did, we talked, not much happened.
So the next week, she wasn't really there, she came back several days later on crutches. Well, for Valentine's day, I decided to send her a rose, as a friend mainly, but I would let her take it how she wanted to take it. I found out from my friend Moriah that she was going with another one of my friends, Ron, I didn't get mad, in fact, I was happy for her. But then I thought about it, and I knew what kinda guy Ron is, I mean, sure he can change for someone, but generally, I know what he's after. I didn't wanna break them up, so I didn't say anything.

Well, Wednesday, I had to stay after school for rehearsal, and after it was over, I saw her waiting by the door. I talked to her for a while, since it was just us in the hallway, but once the kids got out of Gospel choir, we decided to take our business elsewhere. So we went to a hallway and started talking, I sat down, and we were just talking about random sh*t, playing through each other's phones, listening to music, waiting for her mom to arrive. After we gave each other dozens of subtle hints, and she talked to me about her relationship with Ron, and how she doesn't think it's going to do too well, we talked about what would happen if we got back together. We laguhed, and I told her regardless, I'd always keep in touch, and I expect her to do the same. Her mom finally called her, saying she was outside, so I helped her up (she's still on crutches), and as she was walking away, I sighed, then I finally said it:
"I want you back"
And with those 4 words, I confused the hell out of her and turned her world upsdie down. I know for my benefit I should get back with her, jsut to see how things go, and I know if I try anyone else, It just won't feel right. Flirting, dating, they just don't feel right with anyone else, and even though me and her never had sex, I'm sure with anyone else it'd jsut feel.....weird. I don't know, that's my story, I just want to share it with you all, and want to know what you'd do in this situation, or if you've been in one like this.

[Bomby]

If she has a ticket, wait for her before leaving for Singapore. She'll leave him for you and come with!!! Just wait a few minutes longer.

...

Oh, wait, wrong movie.

But still, you did it. You knew you had to do it. Whether or not it was the right time to do it won't matter providing she didn't give you an immediate answer.

But then again, what do I know, really?

[Valigarmander]

Tough... I wish I could help. But if you truly do love her, I'm sure you'll find a way to be with her... Until that opportunity shows itself, we'll help you the best we can.