I feel guilty

**Valigarmander** · 03-30-2007, 02:50 PM

I've had my heart broken before, and it's the most incredibly painful experience of one's life. I'd like to think that I had never made anyone feel that way, but I think I have.

Back in the sixth grade... I was a dumbass. A literal, borderline retarded, socially inept dumbass. I couldn't do a thing when it came to people. This included making friends. So, when a girl by the name of Brittany approached me, I didn't think much of it. I just thought she was some girl who wanted to be my friend. Time passed, and I still thought that, despite her obvious advances on me. Then, one day, she tells me that she's in love with me. I am dumbfounded.

I had feelings for her too. I would have loved to get together with her. But I was afraid. Like the complete social retard I was, I was too damn afraid of getting into such a serious relationship. I didn't think I was ready. So, instead of telling her no, instead of letting her down easy, I did nothing.

Nothing.

Abso-****ing-lutely nothing. For weeks, I didn't even talk to her. I avoided her even. And then, one day I got a note. It was from "the girl with a broken heart."

Afterwards I didn't really care. I wasn't sure what had happened. But as time passed, and my microscopic brain got just a little bit bigger, I realized what I had done. Last year, when I had my own heart broken, I realized just how I must have made that poor girl feel. When I realized this, I felt like scum. This girl really loved me, and instead of making her happy, I brought upon her pain and heartache unimaginable. I felt like a horrible person. I still do, and I wish I could meet her again, just to tell her I'm sorry.

Anyone else ever done the same thing, though I doubt any of you were as misanthropic as I was when I was younger.

blaziken3 · 03-30-2007, 03:15 PM

Surprisingly,In the 6th grade I was in love with a girl,and she loved me.But when I got into a fight because someone punched me,she still loved me but I was suspended for fighting that person.The next day the person that I beat up told somebody to give my girlfriend a note,it said it was from me but it wasn't.She got really angry and said she would never talk to me again.The day after that she moved and I never saw her again.And she had left the note that she read in my locker,and I still have it,this is what it says{since I still have it.

To:{I'm not saying her name yet}

You are a dumba** I never did like you ugly son of a bi***.
How about you go hump a rock you lesbi**
I never did like you.You need to go get A life
Signed:Your Fu***** boyfriend

I was in shock once I saw this.Then I beat up the kid again and got suspended again then when I got back from being suspended I found a note from her it said nothing more than.

I never knew you were like this.You bast***!

My heart stopped I couldn't move.My heart,I've never felt anything like it.
The only thing I had to remember her by, Was this bad letter.

SephirothKirby · 03-30-2007, 03:19 PM

^Why did you beat him up in the first place?

Fighting doesn't settle anything. Although, the second time I can see why you did, the first time I see no justice in.

blaziken3 · 03-30-2007, 03:23 PM

he just through a punch at me

SephirothKirby · 03-30-2007, 03:25 PM

That is no excuse for fighting back.

blaziken3 · 03-30-2007, 03:29 PM

Well the last time it was!

SephirothKirby · 03-30-2007, 03:31 PM

Yes, but the last time would not have been relevant if you didn't fight him the first time.

[/Pwnt]

**Marchie** · 03-30-2007, 03:33 PM

Meh, no one likes me, so no, I haven't.

blaziken3 · 03-30-2007, 08:04 PM

Why doesn't anyone like you?

**Marchie** · 03-30-2007, 09:44 PM

Haha, hell if I know.

blaziken3 · 03-30-2007, 10:27 PM

I'll post here tommorow

***CaptHayfever*** · 03-31-2007, 01:12 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SephirothKirby

That is no excuse for fighting back.

Wait, what? Since when is unprovoked assault no excuse for fighting back? ("Zero tolerance" schools excepted) That's THE excuse for fighting back.

And remember, "I'm-a Luigi, number one!"

ChuckleHuck · 03-31-2007, 07:57 AM

I have no true love. So, problems like this do not occur to me.

Mmm...maybe someday.

ROBERT2011 · 03-31-2007, 09:22 AM

Pfft..... happened to me.

Perrin Aybara · 03-31-2007, 12:26 PM

Personally, I don't think kids in 6th grade fully understand what love is all about.

(Hell, most adults don't.)

I doubt she's even going to remember you in another year or so. So don't worry about it.

Getting rejected is a part of life. People need to learn to deal with it. It's not your fault.-jay

Eagle Eye · 03-31-2007, 01:51 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SephirothKirby

That is no excuse for fighting back.

That I don't agree with.

I never start fights, but if someone starts swingin at me, I'm not goin to keep walkin away, they're gettin a grade-A asswhoopin.

blaziken3 · 03-31-2007, 02:22 PM

I wouldn't rather just sit there or walk away or anything.I did what I did

03-31-2007, 03:24 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by SephirothKirby

That is no excuse for fighting back.

Not true. I'm not one of those stupid people that starts a fight cause they stole your pen or something. I have no problem with people who talk smack, but if they turn it physical, then I fight back.

blaziken3 · 03-31-2007, 03:25 PM

everyone thinks different than sephirothkirby

**Loot** · 03-31-2007, 06:43 PM

... Did I give you permission to speak?

No, I did not. We're going to have to fix that.

03-30-2007, 02:50 PM	#1
Valigarmander The Bee's Knees Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: The land of rain and trees (Oregon) Gender: Posts: 29,755 Thanks: 1,649 Thanked 5,700 Times in 2,580 Posts Blog Entries: 20	I feel guilty I've had my heart broken before, and it's the most incredibly painful experience of one's life. I'd like to think that I had never made anyone feel that way, but I think I have. Back in the sixth grade... I was a dumbass. A literal, borderline retarded, socially inept dumbass. I couldn't do a thing when it came to people. This included making friends. So, when a girl by the name of Brittany approached me, I didn't think much of it. I just thought she was some girl who wanted to be my friend. Time passed, and I still thought that, despite her obvious advances on me. Then, one day, she tells me that she's in love with me. I am dumbfounded. I had feelings for her too. I would have loved to get together with her. But I was afraid. Like the complete social retard I was, I was too damn afraid of getting into such a serious relationship. I didn't think I was ready. So, instead of telling her no, instead of letting her down easy, I did nothing. Nothing. Abso-***ing-lutely nothing. For weeks, I didn't even talk to her. I avoided her even. And then, one day I got a note. It was from "the girl with a broken heart." Afterwards I didn't really care. I wasn't sure what had happened. But as time passed, and my microscopic brain got just a little* bit bigger, I realized what I had done. Last year, when I had my own heart broken, I realized just how I must have made that poor girl feel. When I realized this, I felt like scum. This girl really loved me, and instead of making her happy, I brought upon her pain and heartache unimaginable. I felt like a horrible person. I still do, and I wish I could meet her again, just to tell her I'm sorry. Anyone else ever done the same thing, though I doubt any of you were as misanthropic as I was when I was younger.

03-30-2007, 03:15 PM	#2
blaziken3 Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Private Gender: Posts: 28 Thanks: 17 Thanked 0 Times in 0 Posts	Surprisingly,In the 6th grade I was in love with a girl,and she loved me.But when I got into a fight because someone punched me,she still loved me but I was suspended for fighting that person.The next day the person that I beat up told somebody to give my girlfriend a note,it said it was from me but it wasn't.She got really angry and said she would never talk to me again.The day after that she moved and I never saw her again.And she had left the note that she read in my locker,and I still have it,this is what it says{since I still have it. To:{I'm not saying her name yet} You are a dumba I never did like you ugly son of a bi. How about you go hump a rock you lesbi* I never did like you.You need to go get A life Signed:Your Fu*** boyfriend I was in shock once I saw this.Then I beat up the kid again and got suspended again then when I got back from being suspended I found a note from her it said nothing more than. I never knew you were like this.You bast*! My heart stopped I couldn't move.My heart,I've never felt anything like it. The only thing I had to remember her by, Was this bad letter.

03-30-2007, 03:19 PM	#3
SephirothKirby Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: Those who criticize our generation forget who raised it. Gender: Posts: 7,213 Thanks: 373 Thanked 760 Times in 447 Posts	^Why did you beat him up in the first place? Fighting doesn't settle anything. Although, the second time I can see why you did, the first time I see no justice in.

03-30-2007, 03:23 PM	#4
blaziken3 Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Private Gender: Posts: 28 Thanks: 17 Thanked 0 Times in 0 Posts	he just through a punch at me

03-30-2007, 03:25 PM	#5
SephirothKirby Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: Those who criticize our generation forget who raised it. Gender: Posts: 7,213 Thanks: 373 Thanked 760 Times in 447 Posts	That is no excuse for fighting back.

03-30-2007, 03:29 PM	#6
blaziken3 Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Private Gender: Posts: 28 Thanks: 17 Thanked 0 Times in 0 Posts	Well the last time it was!

03-30-2007, 03:31 PM	#7
SephirothKirby Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: Those who criticize our generation forget who raised it. Gender: Posts: 7,213 Thanks: 373 Thanked 760 Times in 447 Posts	Yes, but the last time would not have been relevant if you didn't fight him the first time. [/Pwnt]

03-30-2007, 03:33 PM	#8
Marchie Pokeman Master since 1999 Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Wiscaaaaaaaaaaansin/Michigan Gender: Posts: 16,647 Thanks: 1,442 Thanked 680 Times in 477 Posts	Meh, no one likes me, so no, I haven't.

03-30-2007, 08:04 PM	#9
blaziken3 Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Private Gender: Posts: 28 Thanks: 17 Thanked 0 Times in 0 Posts	Why doesn't anyone like you?

03-30-2007, 09:44 PM	#10
Marchie Pokeman Master since 1999 Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Wiscaaaaaaaaaaansin/Michigan Gender: Posts: 16,647 Thanks: 1,442 Thanked 680 Times in 477 Posts	Haha, hell if I know.

03-30-2007, 10:27 PM	#11
blaziken3 Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Private Gender: Posts: 28 Thanks: 17 Thanked 0 Times in 0 Posts	I'll post here tommorow

03-31-2007, 07:57 AM	#13
ChuckleHuck Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: In the walls. Gender: Posts: 1,983 Thanks: 117 Thanked 64 Times in 46 Posts	I have no true love. So, problems like this do not occur to me. Mmm...maybe someday.

03-31-2007, 09:22 AM	#14
ROBERT2011 Member Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: A magical place Gender: Posts: 1,139 Thanks: 29 Thanked 42 Times in 24 Posts	Pfft..... happened to me.

03-31-2007, 12:26 PM	#15
Perrin Aybara Veteran Member Join Date: Apr 1999 Location: Alone....so terribly alone... Some... where... out... there... dies Gender: Posts: 12,760 Thanks: 194 Thanked 504 Times in 235 Posts	Personally, I don't think kids in 6th grade fully understand what love is all about. (Hell, most adults don't.) I doubt she's even going to remember you in another year or so. So don't worry about it. Getting rejected is a part of life. People need to learn to deal with it. It's not your fault.-jay

03-31-2007, 02:22 PM	#17
blaziken3 Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Private Gender: Posts: 28 Thanks: 17 Thanked 0 Times in 0 Posts	I wouldn't rather just sit there or walk away or anything.I did what I did

03-31-2007, 03:25 PM	#19
blaziken3 Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Private Gender: Posts: 28 Thanks: 17 Thanked 0 Times in 0 Posts	everyone thinks different than sephirothkirby

03-31-2007, 06:43 PM	#20
Loot Apparently I'm a mod? Join Date: May 2001 Location: LEGITIMATE BUSINESS Gender: Posts: 13,208 Thanks: 236 Thanked 1,237 Times in 659 Posts	... Did I give you permission to speak? No, I did not. We're going to have to fix that.