Confusion.

**Galefore** · 04-30-2009, 04:06 PM

So today I found out my pastor of 12 years is fed up with his lack of income and the hypocrisy of half of our church members, and his health is deteriorating, and he found a job that actually pays him down on the coast. So he's leaving after June.

This doesn't sound so bad to most of you, I'm sure. But this man is my mentor, my father figure, and the guy who's helped me through a lot of hard times. As some of you know, my real dad was an abusive moron and my adopted dad died when I was 4. As well, the only man my mom has been with since then was a brief marriage in 2000 to a manipulative ass named Eddie. My pastor has been the only consistent dad to me, and him just suddenly leaving is going to tear a huge chunk from my heart.

Our church itself will likely dissolve; we have 20 very on-and-off members and the pastor and his wife are the only members of the praise team aside from me. There's nobody else to really come and take his place as pastor, and since there's no praise team, I've got to either try to find a new church and audition for the drum seat there, or just go ahead and form a band.

There is a bright side to this; my loyalty to that church was all that I considered a reason to stay in Mississippi. After High School, I'll likely move to my Brother's place in California and find a good music school. Nothing to stop me anymore. As well, I can form a band without worrying about Worship Service commitments (which, frankly, wasn't the only reason I don't have a band yet, but it was a small concern)

Still, I wept for the first time in a long time over this; it's not like the guy died or anything, and he's only 5 hours away, but it's just such a mess and I'm really saddened that I'll be missing my 'dad' for the next phase of my life. Change happens, though, and I have to roll with it.

But it still ****ing sucks.

I REALLY HATE POKEMON! · 04-30-2009, 04:09 PM

Yeah, that's pretty tough...but California is nice. Not that I've physically left it ever, but TV tells me other places suck. Have fun when you get to Ca.

04-30-2009, 04:06 PM	#1
Galefore EXPLOSION GOD OF MUSIC Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Some studio somewhere Gender: Posts: 8,275 Thanks: 1,361 Thanked 826 Times in 535 Posts Blog Entries: 5	Confusion. So today I found out my pastor of 12 years is fed up with his lack of income and the hypocrisy of half of our church members, and his health is deteriorating, and he found a job that actually pays him down on the coast. So he's leaving after June. This doesn't sound so bad to most of you, I'm sure. But this man is my mentor, my father figure, and the guy who's helped me through a lot of hard times. As some of you know, my real dad was an abusive moron and my adopted dad died when I was 4. As well, the only man my mom has been with since then was a brief marriage in 2000 to a manipulative ass named Eddie. My pastor has been the only consistent dad to me, and him just suddenly leaving is going to tear a huge chunk from my heart. Our church itself will likely dissolve; we have 20 very on-and-off members and the pastor and his wife are the only members of the praise team aside from me. There's nobody else to really come and take his place as pastor, and since there's no praise team, I've got to either try to find a new church and audition for the drum seat there, or just go ahead and form a band. There is a bright side to this; my loyalty to that church was all that I considered a reason to stay in Mississippi. After High School, I'll likely move to my Brother's place in California and find a good music school. Nothing to stop me anymore. As well, I can form a band without worrying about Worship Service commitments (which, frankly, wasn't the only reason I don't have a band yet, but it was a small concern) Still, I wept for the first time in a long time over this; it's not like the guy died or anything, and he's only 5 hours away, but it's just such a mess and I'm really saddened that I'll be missing my 'dad' for the next phase of my life. Change happens, though, and I have to roll with it. But it still ****ing sucks.

04-30-2009, 04:09 PM	#2
I REALLY HATE POKEMON! Goku lives on the Sun Join Date: Jun 2000 Location: California, U.S.A Gender: Posts: 12,717 Thanks: 1,334 Thanked 275 Times in 234 Posts Blog Entries: 1	Yeah, that's pretty tough...but California is nice. Not that I've physically left it ever, but TV tells me other places suck. Have fun when you get to Ca.